I'm devestated...

I've been crying on and off since 1p.m. Everything has changed now. I don't know what hurts more... Losing the one you love or giving up someone you thought you loved, but never really did, or at least not anymore. Domonic has been everything to me since we met in August '08. And I let him go today. I also made the decision to get an abortion on Monday. I'm not a mom. I'm a mess. I need to do what's right.